Friday, July 29, 2011

The Dreary Night

Sometimes I hate the night. Often I feel a disconnect with normal life. Nothing seems to have any value. I wonder why anything is worth putting in any effort. Trying to get to sleep at home after I got out of the hospital was particularly difficult. Everything seemed empty and meaningless, yet I needed to think of something positive in order to get to sleep.

My medicine can often make me very drowsy at night, which means what little "nightlife" I had is pretty much gone. I can certainly put off taking my meds to a later hour, but when your body is used to feeling drowsy at a certain time, it can still be hard to mess up your schedule. It's best for me to stay on a good schedule, anyway.

I actually feel better typing this post. Just knowing that you all are out there is comforting. I suppose it doesn't make a lot of sense, but I don't feel alone with my family spinning on a little ball out in space. There is companionship and fellowship out there to pull me out of myself.

4 comments:

Karen said...

I wished you lived closer to us, so we could get together. I pray that you get your medication issues resolved and that you feel less alone. (((hugs)))

Dan at Necessary Roughness said...

There's also Google Plus. ;)

When you're involved in the highest profession, everybody else tries to convince you that you're not number one. :) Keep up the good work.

Barb the Evil Genius said...

Karen, I wish we lived closer also. I would love to come up to MI sometime, as I have family up there, and I also enjoy Frankenmuth. But you know how unaffordable long trips are becoming these days.

As far as my medication, my biggest problem is affording it. Oddly, it's gotten more difficult since a certain bill passed.

Dan, Mr. BTEG sent me an invitation to Google Plus. I guess I will have to rouse myself to actually sign on.

Thank you both for the encouragement.

Elephantschild said...

Yes, come play on Google +. It's what FB wants to be when it grows up. :-)