Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Questioning

I am going to be posting on higher education, in regards to my family in particular, but as I was planning the post out in my mind, I took a side trip. I have always been disappointed in my college career. I wrote too much trying to explain, so let's just say I don't know why I went to the college I did, or took some of the courses that I did. However, when I get down to it, I always get back to the fact that I met my now-husband there, so I can't completely regret my college choice.

Which leads me to a point where I get theologically muddled: what was God's involvement in this? Dawn Eden, in her book, says that a man's wife is chosen for him by God. How does God plan things for us, however, which involve the actions of other people? How did my husband and I end up going to the same college, and both make friends with the same person who would eventually introduce us? I never felt a "call," or anything similar to go to the college I did. I went because they supposedly had a good program in a major my father pushed towards. I ended up not really being interested in that major, and not seeing the program as that good anyway. I completely fumbled my way through the whole higher education process. God knew all that would happen, since He is omniscient, but did he *direct* any of it? And if so, how?

1 comment:

Scott said...

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." -Proverbs 16:9

"Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you?" -Luke 12:27-8

For God to *know* a thing is for God to *will* that thing, for nothing takes place outside His will. As Pr. Kavouras said in bible class this past Sunday, God is at this very moment involved with each atom and molecule in a paper clip, holding the whole thing together. Without Him, it would dissolve. He did not wind up the creation and set it on his mantle like a clock, letting it wind itself down. He is actively involved in every minute detail.

Regret is part of living under the cross. We must bear it, but so often we see how even under its weight, God blesses us. I have a million "what-if" scenarios that run through my mind, and I always come back to examples like you state regarding your husband. Sooo many things in our lives depend on outrageous "circumstance" of micro-second timing. God is in those details and circumstances guiding, disciplining, and blessing us.

That you didn't feel a special call to your college is just evidence that God doesn't work subjectively, but objectively. It is also evidence that He has a plan and is sticking to it. There's no moment when things are changing, or when your fate is up to you and your choice alone. God is there, with you, all the time.

Hope that makes sense and helps.